The Journey Begins

I am beginning this journey with the support of my family and friends.  Without them I would not be here.

Definition of BEGINNING: the point in time or space at which something starts.  

I had to take some time and actually think about what to write.  How does a journey begin?

How do you begin or take on a new journey?  I would love to hear from you!  I could use a bit of a direction.

I tell everyone that I am crazy.  That I have a very deep box of crazy.  Eventually the people in my life will reach their limit of crazy and walk away.  Like almost everyone that has come and gone in my life.

I guess I will take the first step and start with the basics. 
I am BIPOLAR with PTSD.  DEPRESSION is severe and the highs are very rare.  I have self-committed twice for SUICIDAL IDEATION.  

I also have FIBROMYALGIA and a mix of digestive issues.

I attribute my bipolar depression and PTSD issues to my childhood.  I was psychologically, sexually, and physically abused by my step father from the age of four years old until I decided to move out at the age of 17 years.

This blog is my lifeline.  The simplest way that I can what it is I am trying to gain from this journey is HEALING.  I am hoping to be able to come to terms with my internal demons and finally lay them to rest.